Friday, June 13, 2008

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

I was sitting this morning in my room reading today’s Lesson: Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

And I was praying to have a different day.

A day, that will open a new door for me.

I asked for a change---and: it did (it still surprises me when it happens).

This is also the reason I am writing this post. Well there isn’t really a reason I could define, I only know: I should. For my self. All my judgments aside. Like I really believe I am a bad and not very interesting writer. But I figure: just follow the instruction. Judgment is not my department.

It’s also when Dear One appeared, how he does EVERY time I need him. And THIS is that wants to be shared.

When I got the call at 11pm on Tuesday, May 20th about the transition of The Old Man, I have to admit that I wasn’t surprised. I actually gave him complete permission to leave for a while. The thing is though: he did not leave.-Or better: I am gone with him. He feels so much closer to me. He never was the identity I gave to him, when he was sitting in front of me every day --my way of separating my self from him. He came back as my self.

So, this morning I prayed for a change.

I had the most amazing day. Most of all I am grateful to todays lesson.

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

Today I actually remembered the lesson a lot. Each time I would catch my self going into a judgment about someone, I applied it. Looking beyond. Having my gaze fixed on God. Not making up stories, but staying with the lesson. Staying present.


There is a God.- and He is there for me. He does not judge me. He looks right at me disregarding my insanity completely. And so does Dear One and Jesus and my brother.
I was only mistaken about my self. And that is the lesson to "for-give".

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Gorgeous Lily!

I love this message!!! Wow. Thank you. I will be back on July 10th. I can't wait to see you again.

love, lisa

7:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

please everyine can you pray for me ive lost everything ref pain med addiction ,marriage ,family ,career job,etc pride,and worst of all legal issues please pray for me that my life will get better ,that my marriage and depression will get better and that my court issues will be washed or dropped ,
god bless all
stephen todd oldham from nc

3:50 PM  

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