Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

I was sitting this morning in my room reading today’s Lesson: Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

And I was praying to have a different day.

A day, that will open a new door for me.

I asked for a change---and: it did (it still surprises me when it happens).

This is also the reason I am writing this post. Well there isn’t really a reason I could define, I only know: I should. For my self. All my judgments aside. Like I really believe I am a bad and not very interesting writer. But I figure: just follow the instruction. Judgment is not my department.

It’s also when Dear One appeared, how he does EVERY time I need him. And THIS is that wants to be shared.

When I got the call at 11pm on Tuesday, May 20th about the transition of The Old Man, I have to admit that I wasn’t surprised. I actually gave him complete permission to leave for a while. The thing is though: he did not leave.-Or better: I am gone with him. He feels so much closer to me. He never was the identity I gave to him, when he was sitting in front of me every day --my way of separating my self from him. He came back as my self.

So, this morning I prayed for a change.

I had the most amazing day. Most of all I am grateful to todays lesson.

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

Today I actually remembered the lesson a lot. Each time I would catch my self going into a judgment about someone, I applied it. Looking beyond. Having my gaze fixed on God. Not making up stories, but staying with the lesson. Staying present.

I LOVE IT!

There is a God.- and He is there for me. He does not judge me. He looks right at me disregarding my insanity completely. And so does Dear One and Jesus and my brother.
I was only mistaken about my self. And that is the lesson to "for-give".