Miracle Prayer & A Course In Miracles

The War Against Myself Is Over

2009-01-03T20:16:00.000-08:00

As long as one brother is asleep the dream, there is a justification to kill. This is not about a world out there. This is about your individual decision only. And I am done.

I felt like posting this:

TOWARDS A MIRACLE IN THE MIDDLE EAST
By Marianne Williamson

Today is a day to cry for Israel. Today is a day to cry for the Palestinians. Today is a day to cry for all of us.

Today is a day of war.

War anywhere, at this point in our history, is an action that threatens peace everywhere. Particularly when it comes to the Middle East. From its spiritual significance to its political significance, it is humanity's hot spot. It always has been and probably it always will be. It's where all the rivers of human perspective meet, to become either a cauldron of hatred or an ocean of love.

While it might be tempting to “take sides” between Israel and the Palestinians, spiritually there are no sides to be taken. God does not give us victory in battle but rather lifts us above the battlefield. As a generation, our moral imperative to end war period, to somehow move beyond the idea that war is an acceptable means of solving problems. Anything less then that makes us attitudinal conspirators with a line of probability leading to nuclear catastrophe.

According to Swiss psychologist Carl Jung, humanity's biggest problems cannot be solved; they must be outgrown. Our task is to create a field of consciousness in which the idea of war has dropped from the ethers.

So how do we outgrow war?

The first thing we do is to accept the possibility that the end of war is possible. In fact, in the words of Congressman Dennis Kucinich, “we must challenge the belief that war is inevitable.” We must embrace the possibility that a world without war could exist.

Secondly, we must mature beyond the belief that the thinking that got us into this mess can lead us out of it. “The problems of the world will not be solved on the level of thinking we were at when we created them,” wrote Einstein. We must realize that the mortal ego will not provide us with a solution, because it itself is the problem. Notions such as, “The Israelis have a right to defend themselves,” and “The Palestinians have taken so much abuse; what do you expect them to do?” are both insidious drivers of war masquerading as principled stands. They keep us attached to the very duality that is the root of separation and war.

On a spiritual level, our greatest service to both Israelis and Palestinians is to reach for a higher truth within our own minds. For an essential principle of metaphysical reality is that all minds are joined; as any of us are drawn to higher thoughts, then all of us are drawn to higher thoughts. As we ourselves embrace a higher truth, we help create an anti-gravitational force field that lifts all minds above separation, hatred and war.

For all our talk about wanting to be the change, how many of us are siding now against one side or the other in the current Mid-East conflict. If you really want to help the situation there, ask God to remove from your heart any judgment you have against the Israelis or the Palestinians. Any thought of judgment you hold is like a gun that you yourself are firing.

The human race is evolving to the realization that what is happening on the level of consciousness both precedes and determines what happens in the world. War is just an effect, not a cause. With the power of our minds, we can move beyond the level of effect to the level of cause. There, and only there, can we wipe out what President Franklin Roosevelt called the “beginnings of all war.”

As Americans, we have a creed --- a set of principles enshrined and institutionalized in our founding documents. First and foremost among them is that “all men are created equal.” Period. End of story. Don't be lured into thinking that either Israelis or Palestinians have been either the perfect innocents or the perfect victims here; such thinking serves neither. The greatest gift you can give to both is to realize that on a spiritual level, Israelis and Palestinians are one. Their only true reality is the reality of whom they are in this moment, freed from any thoughts of the past.

Complexity is of the ego; do not linger there. Of course there is a complicated history to the struggle currently playing out in the Middle East, and that complicated history has significance and relevance for traditional political formulation. So leave that to the traditional politicians. Our task as seekers and purveyors of a higher human consciousness is to move beyond traditional political notions, to a holistic politics that embraces the relevance of psychological and spiritual realities to the political issues of our time. As students of Gandhi and Dr. King, we know that moving beyond the violence in our own hearts is essential if we are to be conduits for the creation of a world at peace. The truly new politics goes beyond mere “post-partisan” hand-shaking and collaboration among former rivals. It takes us to a new kind of thinking as a basis for the creation of a new kind of world.

Traditionalists can call us naïve all they want to. But anyone who thinks that human hatred can simply be bombed away…they are naïve. Anyone who thinks we can continue to tolerate violence on this planet at ever-increasing levels and have such conflagrations not lead to the ultimate cataclysm of nuclear catastrophe… they are naïve. Anyone who thinks that the narrowness of a rationalistic, mechanistic human perspective can lead us out of the hell which that perspective itself has created…they are naïve. And those who see prayer as merely “symbol, not substance”… they are naïve. Prayer is hardly just symbol; it is a mover of hearts, and thus a mover of mountains.

Mountains we now need desperately to move.

Through the grace of God we are not powerless; according to A Course in Miracles, moving mountains is small compared to what we can do. War is at heart a spiritual problem and it can only be eradicated with a spiritual solution….a solution that lies within all of us.

Martin Luther King Jr. said there is a power in our hearts more powerful than the power of bullets. He described Mahatma Gandhi as the first person in the world to take the love ethic of Jesus Christ and turn it into a broad scale social force for good (To Gandhi himself, non-violence was not just the love ethic of Jesus, but rather the heart of all religion and the heart of reality itself). On today's geo-political landscape, we see hatred turned into a political force all around us; the politics of non-violence turns love into a political force. The question for any conscious human being, much less spiritual seeker, is, “How can I help do that?” Only the power in our hearts will be able to eradicate the idea of war, and then the reality of war from the experience of the human race.

According to Gandhi, the problem with the world was that humanity was not in its right mind. And arguably, we still are not. War, quite simply, is insane. For those of us who wish to be part of the solution, not part of the problem of war; it is time to change our own minds, to accept a healing of our own war-like thoughts, in order to create a new field of possibility. Whether dealing with the transformation of the individual or of the transformation of the world, only what is changed on the level of consciousness becomes a fundamental change in the conditions of the world.

For five minutes each day, be a spiritual activist.

You probably already know what to do. Turn off the TV; neither CNN, MSNBC or FOX know the news. They only know data.
Turn off the bright lights. Put down the newspaper. And go within.
However you do it, turn your attention to the God of your understanding. Surrender your own hatred, give over your own wars, and ask that this year you be lifted above the violence that still lives inside your heart.

With your eyes closed, see on one side of your inner vision the Israeli people. See their physicality, their mannerisms, as you recognize them on the material plane. Now see a light within their hearts, and slowly watch that light expand, extending beyond the confines of their bodies. See the bodies begin to fade before the greater light of their eternal selves.

Now with your inner eye look to the other side of your inner vision, and see there the Palestinian people. See their physicality, their mannerisms, as you recognize them on the material plane. Now see a light within their hearts, and slowly watch that light expand, extending beyond the confines of their bodies. See the bodies begin to fade before the greater light of their eternal selves.

Now using your inner eye - your greatest source of power -bear witness to what happens as the inner light of the Israelis begins to merge with the inner light of the Palestinians. Bear witness to the merging of their spiritual selves. Simply watch and focus, for what you focus on grows stronger.

You are bearing witness now to a higher truth, thus using the power of your mind to draw a heavenly truth into material manifestation. In the presence of higher thought forms, lower ones fall of their own dead weight. In the presence of light, darkness disappears. In the presence of eternal truth, temporal lies begin to fall away.

In the words of Dr. King, “No lie can last forever.” The idea that the Israeli and Palestinian people are truly separate, or have separate needs, is simply a lie of the mortal mind. Spiritually, we are all one. Israelis and Palestinians were created by the same God; in Him they are equal and they are joined eternally. Only thought forms have separated them. Thought forms of guilt and separation have been handed down to children born innocent of such lies, generation after generation; those are the true enemy here, not either group of people.

As any of us move beyond the fear-based thought forms of separation and guilt to the truth of our eternal oneness, it becomes easier for everyone else to do so as well. Let's give up the way-too-easy, so-American way of chiding either Israelis or Palestinians for their difficulty in forgiving the past. What both peoples have endured is almost unimaginable, and only the truly sainted among us should even for a minute consider judging either side.

We don't have to; and when in our own right minds, we don't want to.
Use the power of your mind to create a new possibility… a miracle in the Middle East.

As the poet Rumi wrote so eloquently, “Out beyond all ideas of right and wrong, there is a field. I'll meet you there.” So go there now. Such thoughts are not just poetry, or even symbol, any longer. In the world that's being born, they're the stuff of a new politics.

No more simply asking, “But what can I do?” Go even further, to “What can I think? What can I pray for? What can I meditate on?” Pray for the removal of all walls that separate any of us from any of us, not only on our earth but also in our minds. Pray for the removal of the guns that still fire within your own mind as you accuse or withhold your forgiveness from anyone. And pray that at this perilous hour, those of us whose lives have not been touched by the horrors of war can be of service to those whose lives have been.

Dear God, please deliver them.
And dear God, deliver us.

A COURSE IN MIRACLES UNLEASHED with LISA NATOLI

2008-09-02T12:56:00.000-07:00

Show starts September 8th!

A Course in Miracles Unleashed is "A Direct Encounter with Jesus Christ In the Evolution and Enlightenment of the Human Species."

Lisa is starting this incredible radio show. Please go to the website and tune in. She is so fun and I am sure you are going to have a blast. Don't miss it!

A Course In Miracles Unleashed

2008-08-30T16:46:00.000-07:00

This is incredible. A Course In Miracles is changing the world you see. Make sure you watch the movie. Get a copy @ http://www.acourseinmiraclesunleashed.com

Uncompromising Joel

2008-07-02T15:23:00.000-07:00

Prayer becomes effective when you do not pray for anything! That is the basic law of prayer. Anyone can receive answers to prayer as long as they will release themselves from human desires for personal good or personal gain.

It is trying to make a “house of merchandise” of God that interferes with prayer, asking for food for me or for you – or asking for clothing or housing in spite of the Master’s teaching that you shall not pray for what you shall eat or what you shall drink or wherewithal you shall be clothed – that you shall not take thought for things.

When you pray, pray only that the Kingdom of God be revealed to you. Pray that the will of God be revealed to you. Pray only that God’s Grace reveal Itself within you and let that prayer result in whatever form of good is within the realm of spiritual Grace.

Study & Meditation #49
From Joel Goldsmith
1960 Chicago Open Class (1:2A)
Tape 321 Side 2

I LOOOOOVE IT! Thanks Joel.

I call upon God's Name and on my own.

2008-07-01T17:26:00.000-07:00

This morning I got a call from a brother asking: What name should I use all through the day? God, Jehova, Abba, Father, Jim?

We were laughing together because if you are in the experience of God you could call him anything, like coat hanger for example. God is the BIG Name behind any form and so little things and names join in that ONE meaning.

And...what does it say in today's lesson?
Repeat the Name of God, and little names have lost their meaning. No temptation but becomes a nameless (!!!!) and unwanted thing before God's Name. Repeat His Name, and see how easily you will forget the names of all the gods you valued.

I love this lesson because there is no room to ever be in conflict or unhappy, because you literally will create an altar for truth, each time you turn to God.

Those who call upon the Name of God can not mistake the nameless for the Name, nor sin for grace, nor bodies for the holy Son of God. And should you join a brother as you sit with him in silence, and repeat God's Name along with him within your quiet mind, you have established there an altar which reaches to God Himself and to His Son.

I went with friends on the Wisconsin river today. I live here about 10 years, but I never rented a boat to go play on the river and it was the most beautiful thing.
So, we parked the boat on a little beach and my friend read today's lesson.
We had been in this quiet almost surreal space. Nobody was around. No boats, no people. All of the sudden while reading this passage of the lesson:

God's Name can not be heard without response(!!!!), nor said without an echo in the mind that calls you to remember.
....and there they where, at least 6 boats at once with everyone waving at us, big waves coming up the shore and just a lot of energy. Like EVERYTHING responded to this lesson. I am telling you soon on every airport, shopping mall or bus station there will be an hourly reminder of the daily lesson of A Course In Miracles coming over the speakers.
God thank you for this day. I love you.

7%

2008-06-23T15:31:00.000-07:00

A Swami was having a conversation with Lord Shiva one day and said:

'Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.

Lord Shiva led the Swami to two doors.

He opened one of the doors and the Swami looked in.
In the middle of the room was a large round table. In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew, which smelled delicious and made the Swami's mouth water.
The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly.
They appeared to be famished. They were holding spoons with very long handles that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful.

But because the handle was longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.

The Swami shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering.

Lord Shiva said, 'You have seen Hell.

They went to the next room and opened the door. It was exactly the same as the first one. There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water. The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons, but here the people were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking. The Swami said, 'I don't understand.'

'It is simple,' said Lord Shiva.

'It requires but one skill. You see they have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of themselves.'

When Lord Shiva created the world, He was thinking of you. It's estimated 93% won't forward this. If you are one of the 7% who will, forward this with the title '7%'.

I'm in the 7%

Remember that I will always share my spoon with you.

Thought this was a fun story and this my way t forward the message.
I love you.

HAVE A GREAT DAY

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

2008-06-13T18:39:00.000-07:00

I was sitting this morning in my room reading today’s Lesson: Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

And I was praying to have a different day.

A day, that will open a new door for me.

I asked for a change---and: it did (it still surprises me when it happens).

This is also the reason I am writing this post. Well there isn’t really a reason I could define, I only know: I should. For my self. All my judgments aside. Like I really believe I am a bad and not very interesting writer. But I figure: just follow the instruction. Judgment is not my department.

It’s also when Dear One appeared, how he does EVERY time I need him. And THIS is that wants to be shared.

When I got the call at 11pm on Tuesday, May 20th about the transition of The Old Man, I have to admit that I wasn’t surprised. I actually gave him complete permission to leave for a while. The thing is though: he did not leave.-Or better: I am gone with him. He feels so much closer to me. He never was the identity I gave to him, when he was sitting in front of me every day --my way of separating my self from him. He came back as my self.

So, this morning I prayed for a change.

I had the most amazing day. Most of all I am grateful to todays lesson.

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

Today I actually remembered the lesson a lot. Each time I would catch my self going into a judgment about someone, I applied it. Looking beyond. Having my gaze fixed on God. Not making up stories, but staying with the lesson. Staying present.

I LOVE IT!

There is a God.- and He is there for me. He does not judge me. He looks right at me disregarding my insanity completely. And so does Dear One and Jesus and my brother.
I was only mistaken about my self. And that is the lesson to "for-give".

My stroke of insight

2008-03-21T18:46:00.000-07:00

Read this(or watch the video)--it's very interesting.

I grew up to study the brain because I have a brother who has been diagnosed with a brain disorder, schizophrenia. And as a sister and as a scientist, I wanted to understand, why is it that I can take my dreams, I can connect them to my reality, and I can make my dreams come true -- what is it about my brother's brain and his schizophrenia that he cannot connect his dreams to a common, shared reality, so they instead become delusions?

So I dedicated my career to research into the severe mental illnesses. And I moved from my home state of Indiana to Boston where I was working in the lab of Dr. Francine Benes, in the Harvard Department of Psychiatry. And in the lab, we were asking the question, What are the biological differences between the brains of individuals who would be diagnosed as normal control, as compared to the brains of individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia, schizoaffective, or bipolar disorder?

So we were essentially mapping the microcircuitry of the brain, which cells are communicating with which cells, with which chemicals, and then with what quantities of those chemicals. So there was a lot of meaning in my life because I was performing this kind of research during the day. But then in the evenings and on the weekends I traveled as an advocate for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness.

But on the morning of December 10 1996 I woke up to discover that I had a brain disorder of my own. A blood vessel exploded in the left half of my brain. And in the course of four hours I watched my brain completely deteriorate in its ability to process all information. On the morning of the hemorrhage I could not walk, talk, read, write or recall any of my life. I essentially became an infant in a woman's body.

If you've ever seen a human brain, it's obvious that the two hemispheres are completely separate from one another. And I have brought for you a real human brain. [Thanks.] So, this is a real human brain. This is the front of the brain, the back of the brain with a spinal cord hanging down, and this is how it would be positioned inside of my head. And when you look at the brain, it's obvious that the two cerebral cortices are completely separate from one another. For those of you who understand computers, our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor. While our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor. The two hemispheres do communicate with one another through the corpus collosum, which is made up of some 300 million axonal fibers. But other than that, the two hemispheres are completely separate. Because they process information differently, each hemisphere thinks about different things, they care about different things, and dare I say, they have very different personalities. [Excuse me. Thank you. It's been a joy.]

Our right hemisphere is all about this present moment. It's all about right here right now. Our right hemisphere, it thinks in pictures and it learns kinesthetically through the movement of our bodies. Information in the form of energy streams in simultaneously through all of our sensory systems. And then it explodes into this enormous collage of what this present moment looks like. What this present moment smells like and tastes like, what it feels like and what it sounds like. I am an energy being connected to the energy all around me through the consciousness of my right hemisphere. We are energy beings connected to one another through the consciousness of our right hemispheres as one human family. And right here, right now, all we are brothers and sisters on this planet, here to make the world a better place. And in this moment we are perfect. We are whole. And we are beautiful.

My left hemisphere is a very different place. Our left hemisphere thinks linearly and methodically. Our left hemisphere is all about the past, and it's all about the future. Our left hemisphere is designed to take that enormous collage of the present moment. And start picking details and more details and more details about those details. It then categorizes and organizes all that information. Associates it with everything in the past we've ever learned and projects into the future all of our possibilities. And our left hemisphere thinks in language. It's that ongoing brain chatter that connects me and my internal world to my external world. It's that little voice that says to me, "Hey, you gotta remember to pick up bananas on your way home, and eat 'em in the morning." It's that calculating intelligence that reminds me when I have to do my laundry. But perhaps most important, it's that little voice that says to me, "I am. I am." And as soon as my left hemisphere says to me "I am," I become separate. I become a single solid individual separate from the energy flow around me and separate from you.

And this was the portion of my brain that I lost on the morning of my stroke.

On the morning of the stroke, I woke up to a pounding pain behind my left eye. And it was the kind of pain, caustic pain, that you get when you bite into ice cream. And it just gripped me and then it released me. Then it just gripped me and then released me. And it was very unusual for me to experience any kind of pain, so I thought OK, I'll just start my normal routine. So I got up and I jumped onto my cardio glider, which is a full-body exercise machine. And I'm jamming away on this thing, and I'm realizing that my hands looked like primitive claws grasping onto the bar. I thought "that's very peculiar" and I looked down at my body and I thought, "whoa, I'm a weird-looking thing." And it was as though my consciousness had shifted away from my normal perception of reality, where I'm the person on the machine having the experience, to some esoteric space where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.

And it was all every peculiar and my headache was just getting worse, so I get off the machine, and I'm walking across my living room floor, and I realize that everything inside of my body has slowed way down. And every step is very rigid and very deliberate. There's no fluidity to my pace, and there's this constriction in my area of perceptions so I'm just focused on internal systems. And I'm standing in my bathroom getting ready to step into the shower and I could actually hear the dialog inside of my body. I heard a little voice saying, "OK, you muscles, you gotta contract, you muscles you relax."

And I lost my balance and I'm propped up against the wall. And I look down at my arm and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body. I can't define where I begin and where I end. Because the atoms and the molecules of my arm blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall. And all I could detect was this energy. Energy. And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me, what is going on?" And in that moment, my brain chatter, my left hemisphere brain chatter went totally silent. Just like someone took a remote control and pushed the mute button and -- total silence.

And at first I was shocked to find myself inside of a silent mind. But then I was immediately captivated by the magnificence of energy around me. And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body, I felt enormous and expansive. I felt at one with all the energy that was, and it was beautiful there.

Then all of a sudden my left hemisphere comes back online and it says to me, "Hey! we got a problem, we got a problem, we gotta get some help." So it's like, OK, OK, I got a problem, but then I immediately drifted right back out into the consciousness, and I affectionately referred to this space as La La Land. But it was beautiful there. Imagine what it would be like to be totally disconnected from your brain chatter that connects you to the external world. So here I am in this space and any stress related to my, to my job, it was gone. And I felt lighter in my body. And imagine all of the relationships in the external world and the many stressors related to any of those, they were gone. I felt a sense of peacefulness. And imagine what it would feel like to lose 37 years of emotional baggage! I felt euphoria. Euphoria was beautiful -- and then my left hemisphere comes online and it says "Hey! you've got to pay attention, we've got to get help," and I'm thinking, "I got to get help, I gotta focus." So I get out of the shower and I mechanically dress and I'm walking around my apartment, and I'm thinking, "I gotta get to work, I gotta get to work, can I drive? can I drive?"

And in that moment my right arm went totally paralyzed by my side. And I realized, "Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke! I'm having a stroke!" And the next thing my brain says to me is, "Wow! This is so cool. This is so cool. How many brain scientists have the opportunity to study their own brain from the inside out?"

And then it crosses my mind: "But I'm a very busy woman. I don't have time for a stroke!" So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening so I'll do this for a week or two, and then I'll get back to my routine, OK."

So I gotta call help, I gotta call work. I couldn't remember the number at work, so I remembered, in my office I had a business card with my number on it. So I go in my business room, I pull out a 3-inch stack of business cards. And I'm looking at the card on top, and even though I could see clearly in my mind's eye what my business card looked like, I couldn't tell if this was my card or not, because all I could see were pixels. And the pixels of the words blended with the pixels of the background and the pixels of the symbols, and I just couldn't tell. And I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity. And in that moment, I would be able to reattach to normal reality and I could tell, that's not the card, that's not the card, that's not the card. It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down inside of that stack of cards.

In the meantime, for 45 minutes the hemorrhage is getting bigger in my left hemisphere. I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone, but it's the only plan I have. So I take the phone pad and I put it right here, I'd take the business card, I'd put it right here, and I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad. But then I would drift back out into La La Land, and not remember when I come back if I'd already dialed those numbers.

So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump, and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed them, so that as I would come back to normal reality I'd be able to tell, yes, I've already dialed that number. Eventually the whole number gets dialed, and I'm listening to the phone, and my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me, "Whoo woo wooo woo woo." [laughter] And I think to myself, "Oh my gosh, he sounds like a golden retriever!" And so I say to him, clear in my mind I say to him. "This is Jill! I need help!" And what comes out of my voice is, "Whoo woo wooo woo woo." I'm thinking, "Oh my gosh, I sound like a golden retriever." So I couldn't know, I didn't know that I couldn't speak or understand language until I tried.

So he recognizes that I need help, and he gets me help. And a little while later, I am riding in an ambulance from one hospital across Boston to Mass General Hospital. And I curl up into a little fetal ball. And just like a balloon with the last bit of air just, just right out of the balloon I felt my energy lift and I felt my spirit surrender. And in that moment I knew that I was no longer the choreographer of my life. And either the doctors rescue my body and give me a second chance at life or this was perhaps my moment of transition.

When I awoke later that afternoon I was shocked to discover that I was still alive. When I felt my spirit surrender, I said goodbye to my life, and my mind is now suspended between two very opposite planes of reality. Stimulation coming in through my sensory systems felt like pure pain. Light burned my brain like wildfire and sounds were so loud and chaotic that I could not pick a voice out from the background noise and I just wanted to escape. Because I could not identify the position of my body in space, I felt enormous and expensive, like a genie just liberated from her bottle. And my spirit soared free like a great whale gliding through the sea of silent euphoria. Harmonic. I remember thinking there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze the enormousness of myself back inside this tiny little body.

But I realized "But I'm still alive! I'm still alive and I have found Nirvana. And if I have found Nirvana and I'm still alive, then everyone who is alive can find Nirvana." I picture a world filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate, loving people who knew that they could come to this space at any time. And that they could purposely choose to step to the right of their left hemispheres and find this peace. And then I realized what a tremendous gift this experience could be, what a stroke of insight this could be to how we live our lives. And it motivated my to recover.

Two and a half weeks after the hemorrhage, the surgeons went in and they removed a blood clot the size of a golf ball that was pushing on my language centers. Here I am with my mama, who's a true angel in my life. It took me eight years to completely recover.

So who are we? We are the life force power of the universe, with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds. And we have the power to choose, moment by moment, who and how we want to be in the world. Right here right now, I can step into the consciousness of my right hemisphere where we are -- I am -- the life force power of the universe, and the life force power of the 50 trillion beautiful molecular geniuses that make up my form. At one with all that is. Or I can choose to step into the consciousness of my left hemisphere. where I become a single individual, a solid, separate from the flow, separate from you. I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, intellectual, neuroanatomist. These are the "we" inside of me.

Which would you choose? Which do you choose? And when? I believe that the more time we spend choosing to run the deep inner peace circuitry of our right hemispheres, the more peace we will project into the world and the more peaceful our planet will be. And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.

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Happy Easter

2008-03-14T18:14:00.000-07:00

This does not mean I have my ducks in a row:)

I am having an incredible experience at this Easter Retreat at our Healing Center. Everyone stays in light and everything goes easy. Including the cleaning up. Thank you!
I am trying to stay in the present moment and be with Jesus, who is tangible present here.

I'd like to share a story of David here, who found us through the internet and called. He shared his story with me:

The Encourager’s Story………………….

The doctor said,” There is nothing more we can do for you David, the cancer is gone but the pain will remain. We think it is radiation burn from the radiation treatments that you had received in 1992 that is the cause of your pain. The doctor then said “I will have you enter the hospital and we will remove your rectum and you can live with a colostomy bag. Many people live this way and have a good life with out the devastating pain that you are in everyday.”

At that time I had a wake up call.

I had a colostomy bag before during recovery from my first bout with colon rectal cancer and although I could live with one and the undesirable side affects which that brings. I did not want too. Still in pain I went home and called another doctor. He was a pain management doctor. I meet with him and he proscribed to me Vicodin and Percocet to end the pain. It worked to ease the pain however my life was still unmanageable. My colon was not working properly. I had two bouts with colon rectal cancer along with two surgeries and the last surgery in 2006 the doctor removed 1/3 of my colon. My quality of life was, well not good at best. I do not want to elaborate, I just want to give you some background on my situation. I am no longer on any pain pills and the pain has all but subsided. It was God calling me all the time. God uses ALL the events in our lives to call us when he knows that we are one of His chosen. If you are reading this note today you are one of His chosen spirits that he created so long ago. Remember, in ALL the religious texts; He tells us “I new you before you were conceived in your mothers womb.”

The doctors found my recovery to be unexplainable and truly extraordinary. But then, as they say, "these things do sometimes happen." Don't they? You bet they do. And so it was and still is. I offer to anyone who cares to listen, the simple message of total God-dependence: "Simply let go and let God". To some, it sounds like surrender and so it is. But what awesome healing power is found in letting His Will be done. His will is your perfect will !!

I believe in miracles. More than that, I know they happen and are happening. It is God's Will that we be whole and perfect as we were created. And in the "great good fortune" of this eternal Truth, we, as so-called mortal men, have nothing whatsoever to say about it. I live in, and continue to practice living in "the right here and now, just as it is". Please remember the past is gone, the future is not here yet, so if you are thinking in one of these two realms then your mind is really “blank”. Nothing you are thinking about is real. I hope this helps you. I think it will. I love you. I carry a message of miraculous spiritual recovery and try to serve the best I can our Savior Jesus Christ. Without whom, this life and all eternity is meaningless. The miraculous healing of our minds and bodies occur through the Holy Spirit, in the continuing power of our acts of forgiveness and love, with no regard whatsoever for this unforgivable world of pain and death.

God Bless Us Everyone

Smiling As the Shit Comes Down- Day

2008-02-25T14:49:00.000-08:00

I am actually really happy today. Thank God I only have to look to this day. Everything I want and need is offered to me today.

Every situation is exactly what I need to awaken.

I had to remember this.
We had a udge leak in the sealing and it was dripping everywhere and the sealing came down in one place.
I was disappointed with my husband too.
All just for a moment.
Isn't any expectation towards another pure bullshit? It's always based on the past. It is being "McDreamy" and has absolutely nothing to do with now or who my brother is in truth or what is real in this moment.

Teleportation is being offered me. A whole new continuum. Why would I want to hold on to this one?-old, stinky and rotten?

My latest "painting":
I so much enjoy this now.

Thank you. Mean it.

Journey Home

2008-02-22T17:45:00.000-08:00

I am so so so exited!
First: I do not have to write, I can just post my art, because thats what I really LIKE doing. I was a bit struggling the last months with writing anything that would be worth mentioning at all. The truth is: I am mostly bored with myself. At least the moment I am supposed to put it into words, I feel completely fake, like doubly fake since I am a born fakeism.
Second: I am in need of a miracle--NOW. I am totally depended on this moment of grace. I want to leave this world forever and jet I find myself justifying. Here on this blog, in the morning when i got up and thought I have to brush my teeth and when I look out and see anything with my bodies eyes. HELP!
One thing for sure: I LOVE YOU!
I am exited, because I am expecting the biggest quantum leap ever to happen- NOW.
So, here is my latest creation:

This is all I have to say...

2008-02-19T18:58:00.000-08:00

I had the most incredible day in light. - You are so dear to me and I am so grateful that you are considering the reality of God more valuable then what you see.

Lately I find it difficult to formulate anything in words. Painting seems so much easier to me. So this is all I have to say:

"I suspect that we are not the light of consciousness in a dead universe, but the local darkness in a universe of light."
Thaddeus Golas

Little Speck

2008-02-17T12:32:00.000-08:00

Michael just send this to me and I'd like to share it:

"Radical truth means you've got to take the mask off everything and be willing to see it for what it is, and now handle it from the viewpoint of emotional honesty. There is a big massive payoff in ego positions or you wouldn't be sitting here in a body today. The fact that one is back here in a body again means that one has sold out spiritual truth for the gratifications of the ego over and over again.

But in this lifetime it's coming up to be questioned. Is the experience of the Presence of God worth sacrificing all that you get out of your ego? The answer can only be arrived at via faith. Experientially no; nothing in your experience tells you that giving up the pleasure of resentments and hatreds and the satisfactions of winning is worth it. It takes the teachings of a great teacher who has been through it to tell you that the experience of God is beyond all description, beyond all the pleasure and values and aquisitions emotionally and materially, which are like a speck compared to the Presence of God. Therefore you have to sacrifice the familiar."
From the Dr. David Hawkins Lecture of February 2002 lecture

Just today, especially today. Give up the familiar. Question every value here.
There is nothing to fear.

I love that it always seems only a leap of faith. There is no way I could get it right here and I am constantly missing it. ( See image )My good intention never helped me.
I am saved by pure grace. Thats basically it.-I think:) ha-ha.
Oh: "There is nothing to fear."

Easter Celebration

2008-02-12T16:58:00.000-08:00

You will be the first one seeing this invitation, cause i just got done designing it.
Hope you'll come. I'd love to see your face.

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My Holiness Blesses the World

2008-02-06T17:00:00.000-08:00

Today I mostly played...
Blessings from a snowed in Healing Center
with Love...

A Course in Miracles Unleashed

2008-02-05T07:03:00.000-08:00

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Breaking The Spell

2008-01-24T19:52:00.000-08:00

I have not written a word for so long, that I have to make this step just to brake the "spell"- to write just a few words without knowing what to say.

We are so blessed, to simply not know what the next step is going to be. You are willing to listen and to do according to the instructions you receive. Every day I experience the impossibility of myself- just this identity that pinned itself to looking at a world it does not understand. And then I can go to session and watch the latest video with Master Teacher on Christian Sience and I get simply exstatic. I am out of my mind happy and still don't have a clue. I feel I am on this great adventure.

This is my little contribution today in hopes that I will write more often.

Just doing it and see what happens.
I am deeply grateful for you joining me in this great awakening.
Love ya!

Isn't this winter beautiful? I never knew how many different kinds of snow there are. Wow!

This Body Is Not Me

2008-01-08T10:42:00.000-08:00

This is my salvation today:

“Prayer – The Upward Dimension: Earthbound - Landlocked
by Joel Goldsmith

We are earthbound and we are landlocked until we break out by going upward. Only as our vision goes upward out of this body, out of this world of force, do we get up into a free strata, a free realm, where we’re no longer body locked, landlocked, earthbound, but where we are free souls. You know that all of this world, except the mystics or those on the mystical path, are locked up in their bodies. Their body is the most real thing to them. They’re fastened into it and can’t escape from it, and that’s where their misery comes—being landlocked inside of the body, being earthbound inside of the body and having no freedom.

The very first freedom that an individual attains is when they can look in the mirror and say that this body is not Me. This body is not Me. I am Me. I, I am Me. I am Joel. Not this body, this body isn’t Joel. I am Joel, and if the doctors searched from head to foot they couldn’t find Joel inside of this body for I am not here.

And that was the great mystical statement: “He is not here. He is risen”. That’s the symbology of the Resurrection. We are not entombed in this body. In our Resurrection we rise out of the tomb of this body and realize I am Joel. I am not body. I am Joel and I am not in a body. They could not search this body from top to bottom and find me for I am not here. I do not live in a body. I live in Consciousness. I live in God. I live and move and have my being in God therefore I fill all space. I am here and I am there and I am everywhere. I am where God is and God is where I am for we are one, and that one is not limited to time or to space or to place. And that’s why the materialist fears death because they think that with the end of the body, there comes an end of me. How foolish! I’m not in the body. I never was in the body. I won’t live in the body and I won’t die out of the body for I will never be in the body. And therefore, there is no need to fear death because death is just checking the body at a weigh station while we keep going on.

God Rest You Merry Gentlement

2007-12-24T19:31:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-24T18:35:00.000-08:00

Beautiful Story
by Pastor Rob Reid

The pastor and his wife, newly assigned to their first ministry--to reopen a church in suburban Brooklyn--arrived in early October, excited about their opportunities When they saw their church, it was very run down and needed much work. They set a goal to have everything done in time to have their first service on Christmas Eve.

They worked hard, repairing pews, plastering walls, painting, etc, and on December 18 were ahead of schedule and just about finished. On December 19 a terrible tempest - a driving rainstorm - hit the area and lasted for two days.

On the 21st, the pastor went over to the church. His heart sank when he saw that the roof had leaked, causing a large area of plaster, about 20 feet by 8 feet, to fall off the front wall of the sanctuary just behind the pulpit, beginning about head high.

The pastor cleaned up the mess on the floor and, not knowing what else to do but postpone the Christmas Eve service, headed home. On the way he noticed that a local business was having a flea market type sale for charity, so he stopped in. One of the items was a beautiful, handmade, ivory-colored, crocheted tablecloth with exquisite work, fine colors and a Cross embroidered right in the center. It was just the right size to cover up the hole in the front wall. He bought it and headed back to the church.

By this time it had started to snow. An older woman running from the opposite direction was trying to catch the bus. She missed it. The pastor invited her to wait in the warm church for the next bus 45 minutes later.

She sat in a pew and paid no attention to the pastor while he got a ladder, hangers, etc., to put up the tablecloth as a wall tapestry. The pastor could hardly believe how beautiful it looked and it covered up the entire problem area.

Then he noticed the woman walking down the center aisle. Her face was like a sheet. 'Pastor,' she asked, 'where did you get that tablecloth?' The pastor explained. The woman asked him to check the lower right corner to see if the initials, EBG were crocheted into it there. They were. These were the initials of the woman, and she had made this tablecloth 35 years before, in Austria. The woman could hardly believe it as the pastor told her how he had just gotten the Tablecloth. The woman explained that before the war she and her husband were well-to-do people in Austria.

When the Nazis came, she was forced to leave. Her husband was going to follow her the next week. He was captured, sent to prison and she never saw her husband or her home again. The pastor wanted to give her the tablecloth; but she made the pastor keep it for the church.

The pastor insisted on driving her home, that was the least he could do. She lived on the other side of Staten Island and was only in Brooklyn for the day for a housecleaning job.

What a wonderful service they had on Christmas Eve. The church was almost full. The music and the spirit were great. At the end of the service, the pastor and his wife greeted everyone at the door and many said that they would return. One older man, who the pastor recognized from the neighborhood, continued to sit in one of the pews and stare, and the pastor wondered why he wasn't leaving.

The man asked him where he got the tablecloth on the front wall because it was identical to one that his wife had made years ago when they lived in Austria before the war and how could there be two tablecloths so much alike.

He told the pastor how the Nazis came, how he forced his wife to flee for her safety and he was supposed to follow her, but he was arrested and put in a prison. He never saw his wife or his home again in all the 35 years in between.

The pastor asked him if he would allow him to take him for a little ride. They drove to Staten Island and to the same house where the pastor had taken the woman three days earlier. She helped the man climb the three flights of stairs to the woman's apartment, knocked on the door and he saw the greatest Christmas reunion he could ever imagine.

True Story - submitted by Pastor Rob Reid

Who says God does not work in mysterious ways...

The Relationship of Oneness

2007-12-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

This bit is by Joel Goldsmith and is all I needed to hear today.
Happy first of Christmas.

Several years ago in a period of distress, it came to me that I must love those who hate me, I must give love for ingratitude; and my answer was, “Father, I just can't do it. I don't know how to do it. Yes, I can be a hypocrite and say I love these people who are hating, judging, condemning and fighting me; but I can tell you truthfully that I don't – I don't know how to love them. It is true that I have no antagonism towards them because I know what motivates them and I do not blame them. If I did not have a little understanding of Your infinite Love I might do the same thing in their position; so I have no sense of judgment, criticism or condemnation of them. I can even say, ‘Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do’ – but to love them! No, I cannot honestly say that I love them… I just cannot do that. If there is to be any loving, I am perfectly willing to be the avenue through which You, God, can love them through me. If that can be arranged, let's have it that way; but don't ask me to love them because that is beyond my capacity.”

It was less than a minute after that that I settled down into a beautiful peace, went to sleep, and awakened completely healed. It is impossible to love ingratitude, injustice, misrepresentation and lies, but we can be willing to let God take over: “God, You who could love the thief on the cross and the woman taken in adultery. You love these people too.”

What was required for the demonstration that I had to make? Was it not the ability to "nothingize" myself, even to the extent of not trying to be self-righteous about loving my enemy? When you say that you are loving your enemy, that is self-righteousness. We have to learn to let God do the loving and be willing to be an instrument through which God's love flows to our friends and our enemies.

In the world there are good people and bad people, just and unjust people, but when you climb up into that circle of God, you find that God is the Principle of all people; God is the only Principle of people, the animating Love and Life and Truth of all people – those in your business, in your social relationships, and in your home.

Your home is a composite of your consciousness of home. You are the doorkeeper of your household, and you should stand guard at the door and see that nothing gets past that door which does not have a right to be there. This door, however, is not a material door. The only door there is, is the door of consciousness, and the only door for which you are responsible is that door. What do you allow to get past that door, your consciousness? Do you accept contagion and infection as power in your home? Are you a party to discord and bickering? You should make it a matter of daily realization that nothing should enter the doorway of consciousness except the Truth of BEING, and that no suggestion of human power, whether physical, material or mental, is law. Any belief that enters your home must first enter through your consciousness, and the truth of BEING in your consciousness will act as a law of annihilation to any false belief that would intrude.

Everything that comes within range of your consciousness will take on the nature and character of that consciousness. Your own life is not only affected by what gets past the door of your consciousness, but the life of everyone who has brought himself to your consciousness is affected, and that includes the members of your family and sometimes the members of your community and your church. All these look to you for bread; they look to you for the Truth of BEING, but oftentimes your mind is so occupied with concern over your own discords and inharmonies that they are turned away without the divine substance which they sought from you.

Deep within every person is a hunger for the bread of life. Friends, relatives, and even acquaintances who find their way to your home ostensibly seeking companionship, supply or any form of material good, even though from their point of view that may be their purpose, are in reality longing and craving for the true Substance of Life, the meat which perisheth not. If you give them money and give them that alone; if you give them your physical human companionship and give them that alone; you are giving them a stone. You are not giving them the bread of life; you are not lifting their state of consciousness. This you can only do in the degree that you are specifically entertaining the consciousness of Truth within your being as they come to you:

"God is the substance and the activity of my home; God is the consciousness of every individual who enters my home, whether it is family or friends, Nothing enters my home to contaminate or violate its sanctity, because God is my only home. As long as my home appears on earth as a material structure it will express the harmony of God. Those in that home will either reflect that harmony or they will be removed because nothing unlike God can remain in my home, my temple, my being, my body. Anything of a discordant nature that would enter, or might temporarily be permitted to enter, will be removed in its time and in such a way that it will injure no-one, but be a blessing to everyone involved.
Since God is my consciousness, nothing can enter that consciousness that defileth or maketh a lie and even if I in my ignorance or human softness permit something to enter which has no place there, it will not long remain. The consciousness of Truth and Light which I am will heal it or remove it. I am willing that everybody and everything that enters my consciousness shall be either healed or removed. I dare not cling to anyone and say, "With all your faults I still need you and want you". I take my stand with God and, if necessary, leave father, mother, brother, sister, husband, wife in order to dwell in the secret place of the most High."

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Enchanted

2007-11-28T15:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went to see the movie "Enchanted".

I did not expect that I would like it that much, but SURPRISE!
It is a GREAT movie.

I LOVE how Princess Gisele comes to New York (the timely world of doubt and fear) through traveling through a "black hole". Finding herself as a stranger in "hell".

The amazing thing is: she stays completely true to herself and what she is: a Princess from beyond this world. She is so innocent and happy, that everyone thinks she is a crazy person, except of course the little girl and the ones who are recognizing her frequency -my favorite scene in the park.
She does not doubt herself one bit. She just knows who she is.
So everyone starts to join her in that and is giving love a chance.
It is such a demonstration of singularity as I experience the awakening for me. WOW!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!

Go see it!

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Thank God for Ass Kicking

2007-11-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

So, I got a little ass kicking from Lisa today. She checks my blog every day and i am not writing.
BUT I want to learn how to write. BUT I can't learn if I don't PRACTICE. I have to give it a try. Even though I might think I suck at writing or I have nothing to say, or there is something more important and so on.
Sounds just like A Course in Miracles: I do not have to believe the lesson, or understand it, BUT I have to be WILLING to PRACTICE. TO GIVE. Time. Exposure.

In fact there is something going on in my mind for a few days/weeks or forever/whatever.
And up front I have to apologize for all those who's expectations I don't meet or that think i do not understand their problems or have the feeling I am a bit rough.
I am truly sorry, if I caused you pain.

I LOVE you.

I truly do.

I am desperate for truth. So, when you call me, I assume you are desperate for truth. It is a matter of life or death for you.
I assume you are asking for help and are ready to receive it along with me. We will ask together. Leave EVERYTHING behind. All concerns, problems, judgments, illness, the past, the future, experiences, fear, good, evil, EVERYTHING.
I understand we don't know how to do that.

This does not matter.

This is where the miracle takes place. I can't do it, but He will IF I LET HIM.
So basically I have to be willing to shut up and trust in a plan not of my own making.

I have to make room for God to enter.

That's all. No biggy. That's what I truly believe: It is NO BIG DEAL.
But hey, you DEMAND that I listen to your story. That I enter into the past with you. Pitty you for the mess you are in.

Please bare with me: I love you for the reality in you. You are that. I LONG to join with you. BUT: I do not need to know your story, because your story is exactly like mine: You feel something has gone wrong, you don't know the way out, you feel you are going to get old, sick and die in the end. This is it. Period.
You might be caught in the specifics, but the bottom line is: you end up dead.

Good news is: you are already dead.

I just hope you called, because you want to live. You want to be ALIVE! Whatever it takes. You are looking for the solution.

A thousand times: GLADLY would I join with you in your willingness to find it.

I already know it's a total mess. So: Let's get out of here. Dust to our heels. Let God find us and be willing to trust that there is something bigger than my little self image that I made and that has nothing to do with God.

Nothing in this world is true. Listen to this: NOTHING.

So, why bother? WHY?????? Why ARE you calling?????

OK. So, I need this for myself. I need God, like the air I am breathing. Better yet: God is the air I am breathing.

God is found now.

Now.

In this very instant.

...and it has NOTHING to do with my story. It is not connected with it and never will be.

You are really ONLY abiding in Him. There is no world.
AHHHH...YES.

Yes. Healing is truly instantaneous and has nothing to do with time at all.

Thank God!

There is no Conclusion to Life!

2007-11-12T11:42:00.000-08:00

"What Jesus said is actually true. When you are in spiritual consciousness you can ask God for anything and get it. Only be sure that you are asking for something spiritual, for that is all that God has to give. And what is it that is spiritual? Nothing but God.

Therefore, ask for anything you want so long as you ask for God. It doesn’t make any difference what you ask for, only be sure you are asking for God. No one in the history of the world has ever prayed for God to give them the gift of Himself, the Gift of God, who has not received it.

Whereas people are sitting around praying for companionship, money, employment and they keep praying for days and then wonder why God did not see fit to answer their prayers. God only has Himself to give and that is all that you should pray for!"--Study & Meditation #24 from Joel Goldsmith, 1958

The mind training of the Course in Miracles teaches me to let go of ANY result here.
I do not know what my best interests are.

ONLY your relationship with God has any reality.

Master Teacher told me one day on the phone:
You are waiting for a conclusion. There isn't any.

That hit me right in the eye-and I started to see. I am so grateful!

Somewhere I was still waiting for something to occur in time. A conclusion to all my efforts and dedication to God. Sometime, when I will be rewarded for my good deeds and such.

Here on earth the conclusion is always death. You really think if you will be dying some day, you will be going to heaven. Death as your foundation for heaven. NO. You are dead right NOW believing that.

Heaven can ONLY be reached right NOW.

It is your mindfulness towards an alternative.

Not THIS anyway.

Believing you are a body and separate from God was a mistake. It has been corrected.

Finally you are not afraid anymore to trust in God with all you got and GLAD, that we are NOT getting what we are praying for.
It is not going to be how I think it should or will be.

Thank God!

It is always a surprise!
I love you. Mean it.

No School Today

2007-11-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

This morning I did not go to school.

It is fantastic.

I don't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. I just want to go out and home to where I realy abide.

With God.

Fuck the world! Fuck MY world.

I forgot how much I LOVE to be just by myself
---HaHa-
I am looking at that I AM always by myself, I have to laugh.
I should really say: I finally decided to return to my source and STOP DOING. Stop judging, stop projecting, stop sorting it out( by myself)).
Let it be new.

I don't know ANYTHING. My God, what a relieve.

I am listening to the song "Four Seasons In One day" and it says:
" Smiling as the shit comes down,
-You can tell a man from what he has to say.
Everything gets turned around-
I will risk my neck again, again...
You can take me where You will,
up the creek and through the mill,
like all the things you can't explain...

Oh well, here is his video, it has some really cool elements in it, like you are just walking in your own thoughts, in a holographic universe painted on a flat screen. It's also kind of dorky- hey, what the hell:

I am just sooo grateful to you.
-Sharing this one purpose with me.
Leaving this world behind and embarking on this adventure into the unknown known. This is the ONLY thing I want to focus on. The only thing I want to look upon in you, because this must be your purpose as well because there is no other. Nothing else is of interest or value.

Angel in the Postal Service

2007-11-02T15:26:00.000-07:00

This is one of the kindest things I've ever experienced. I have no way to know who sent it, but there is a kind soul working in the dead letter office of the US postal service.

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,
Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick. I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her you will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.
Love, Meredith.

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, "To Meredith" in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, "When a Pet Dies." Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:

Dear Meredith,
Abbey arrived safely in heaven.
Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.
Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by.

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you. I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much. By the way, I am wherever there is love.

Love, God

Let The Hounds Of Heaven catch up With you.

2007-10-26T15:55:00.000-07:00

I am invited to teach tomorrow at our online Advent in German. Oh God, that's going to be some fun exercise. I am so used to teach in English, that its hard to remember any German word for anything I wanna say. It took me 2 days to even find my Course book in German.

Oh well, there is a God and He loves me.

This week I was asked to design a website for Debra Poneman. Her book will come on the market Nov. 1. So she needed a website now. I just said Yes.- And I am so amazed, how you all of the sudden get this whole download. The colors and the whole look was given me over night and it was fun and no effort. I am playing.

I like this guy- listen to his short video.
I love to see that awakening is realizing your true nature and it does not need any doing. In fact all doing is the hindrance to your enlightenment. STOP and let the hounds of heaven catch up with you. Yeahhh!

I love you, Lily.

Why Does God allow Pain and Suffering?

2007-10-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

This is a cute little story about self responsibility. It was send to me this morning:

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:
"I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.

"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.

The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.

The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber:
"You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Being Busy

2007-10-10T18:36:00.000-07:00

I am helping Anita with her new movie "The Second Coming" -A Story about the Course In Miracles. It will be AWESOME! We are just at the beginning. I am creating some business cards for her...This is my first try:

Here is Anita's Blog

All my Love to you!!!

Your Time Is Up!

2007-10-04T15:07:00.000-07:00

"You are constantly ignoring the fact that everything is always over and gone."

This is a sentence from Master Teacher this morning. It made me laugh out loud.

It makes me happy.
It makes me happy this thought, that when I think anything:
I am this or that, happy or sad and so on in the human charade, its not there for me to look upon. I will be wrong about any judgment or observation. Good, bad,--who cares, it will be past.

It is not that you won't have those thoughts...but why (ohhh why) would you want to hold on to any grievance for longer than a second? WHY????? Why would you want to continue to hurt yourself??
Being a body is a grievance.Perceiving is a grievance.Space and time is a grievance.

Freedom of bondage is only one thought away.

I am getting sometimes a bit inpatient about your stories.
...The calls I get sometimes even at night. For example last night...

I am listening to this dear friend telling me for the hundreds time about her feeling abused and waiting for revenge. I am not inpatient in the sense of you not getting it, because I know you have. What I don't get is your insistence on being right about your story, people being out there to get you. You know in the depth of your heart, that what you are telling yourself cannot possibly be the truth. And if it was, it is over now, isn't it? I am just laughing at the tragic games we play ----till we really had enough.

This is the moment of your awakening.

You have to WANT it. That's simple.

You are finally getting tired to hurt yourself and within that belief everyone on earth. You are not alone in experiencing your thoughts. Why delay the inevitable?

You are free and created without limits in any way. You are Love and everything around you is Love. Basta.

The Stillness of the Peace of God

2007-09-30T19:56:00.000-07:00

I just want to say a quick Hi to you. I love you.

I have been quiet busy these days and I feel something profound changing in me and I can't put my finger on it ( Thank God!). So I just sit back and let myself be changed.
Like I read the other day in an essay from Joel Goldsmith: Any perceived problem or conflict is just the Christ in you ascending and your resistance against that, is usually experienced as conflict. So big deal. I let the Christ win. There is nothing else going on anyway.

Today we have been busy as hell at the Cheese Factory Restaurant, where I serve as a cook. I am soo grateful for todays lesson: The Stillness of the Peace of God abides in me. Especially in those seemingly busy or demanding moments the lessons come along as this sanctuary and holy instant, where I can stay unaffected by the world, breathing the fresh air of freedom and joy.

Well... and now at the end of the day knowing you are with me is everything: Thank you.

You can have a miracle NOW!

2007-09-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

This my friend Lisa...isn't she gorgeous?

Direct Contact with God Is Natural

2007-09-25T16:35:00.000-07:00

I love this:

If I Defend Myself I Am Attacked

2007-09-23T16:27:00.000-07:00

Today I experienced so many things--- I don't know, if I am able to bring them all together to share. Probably not-I am having a real short term memory. Oh, well...

One thing was: I just stop trying to proof anything to you. In fact you are completely perfect and lovable exactly as you are right now. If you see a problem, I will share my vision with you, knowing that our ultimate goal is shared: we want to be happy and we can leave space and time together right now. In this holy instant.

So sometimes I come across a guy that wants to argue with me. I love it. So the experiment is to agree with him completely. Yes. You are right. Yes, absolutely.

I don't want to defend ANY idea about myself.

The funny thing though is that there is always such a conversion point in that. There seems always a moment of openness that follows and THAT'S what I am looking for. It feels somehow like forgiveness, like I included you in with myself. Like, everything is getting adjusted to this call for God that is ALL-WAYS going on.

The only thing that CAN be shared is truth. So how can we know what is true?

I think: if it brings JOY to us and everyone in the universe seen or unseen. But it does not matter how it looks today, because: "A happy outcome to ALL things is sure." I don't want to be the judge of anything anymore.

Does this make any sense at all?
I love you with all my heart and liver:)

You Are Holy

2007-09-22T11:32:00.000-07:00

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Open Out a Way

2007-09-20T16:37:00.000-07:00

Since there seems to be a sense of separation between the Father and us, and between all those who are to play a part in our life’s experience, our work is to realize our oneness with the Father, the one consciousness, and then we automatically become one with every spiritual being. There is but one consciousness, and that consciousness, functioning as your consciousness and as mine, is the connecting link between you and your world and me and my world, establishing us in oneness with all those who are a part of our fulfillment.

Unless we wish to engage in a daily battle of competition, a daily battle of trying to work with persons antagonistic to our ideas, unless we wish to take our chance with whether we will have the right employer or right employee, or whether we will deal with those who are the right people for us or the wrong – unless we wish to do that, we must establish firmly our oneness with the Father before we leave our home in the morning to embark upon any enterprise, commercial, social, or ministerial, realizing that the consciousness of the Father, which is our consciousness, is the consciousness of every individual. Therefore, all those ready for the experience of association with us, by the attraction of that consciousness, are brought to us, and in the same way, we are led to everyone we can serve or bless.

By Joel Goldsmith

Healing Yourself

2007-09-19T14:24:00.000-07:00

Are you ready to be healed?

Healing is a natural occurrence through simply listening to the Voice for God. The Voice for God is in everything - it could be, listening to the needs of your brother (the guy next to you), being ready to serve or making tea. It is an action of mind. And this can be practiced. That's what the Course in Miracles taught me.

Today a dear brother came up to me, thanking me for a revelation he had while I was standing with him in our light meditation at the academy. I am deeply grateful to him as well. "You are a real healer" he said. I laughed.

We both knew that whatever happened there, had nothing to do with me. It was brought about through the simple joining of minds and complete surrender to Gods will( --I will be wrong with this description too, but this is what I come up with to find words for something that is completely miraculous and not conceptual).

Joining without fear in love. Pure extension. I LOVE IT!! You stay available for God and all that is happening around you is healing, because you are going home to God. My function is forgiveness. I remember having this thought while I was standing with this brother: "Give me your burden."- And that thought was just given me- it also had nothing to do with me. Everything is pure grace.

You start to be moved by God instead of moving yourself through self will coming from judgments made in the past.

So much more happened, that I can't even describe here, but maybe it can be summed up this way:

YOU ARE LOVE IN ACTION.

Blessings, Lily.

PS: If you like the image as your desktop? Contact me and I'll send you a bigger file.

Huh?

2007-09-18T19:23:00.000-07:00

Being awake is being your self as god created you. It has NOTHING to do what you are thinking about yourself now, or remembered or anticipated. It is merely a recognition, NOT a process in time.
A friend called me the yesterday saying that there are still things that he desires in this world. He can't live without sex or affection.
Neither do I-I just want more...Being with God is pure intimacy and the joy that I experience is so beyond any imagination. Finally I began to realize that I have only ONE relationship and that is with God. As soon as I knew that, all relationships became a reflection of this ONE relationship. And it has zero to do with bodies.

I had to chuckle a bit, because everyone seems to think a "spiritual life" will demand sacrifices. And I remember having these thoughts myself.

Wanting to be with God only needs one single decision and my dedication to it in any situation. I NEED do nothing. Everything from then on is an UNlearning or an UNdoing. Because I am already. Nothing needs to be changed. Everything that I need is given me. Without demanding what that will look like tomorrow.

That is my freedom and yours.
I love you so very much, Lily.

You are mind-Purely mind.

2007-09-16T15:17:00.000-07:00

This is a little video that was spontaneously taken a while ago. Of course I am having trouble looking at myself and think there would be a 1000 ways to make it better.

I choose not to care about that.

Funny is this: when I first watched it, I almost died in self judgment, but simultaneous to all that crap I felt this energy surging through me and I was thinking: Oh my God, I am really healing myself. It is not about self concept but the acceptance of something bigger then me.

So, here we go...

You're living in a mirror glas ball:)

2007-09-15T13:17:00.000-07:00

Today I was reminded of a revelatory vision that was given to me in the beginning of my awakening, when I asked :

WHAT'S GOING ON?
(The story is in fact a bit longer- I,m just giving you the short version of it)

So, in this vision I saw just my head stuck in this ball mirrored from the inside.
I knew it was me- or better the way I was looking at things. I would think a thought and it would be reflected back to me immediately.
But, I would not recognize it as my creation I would respond to it as if it wasn't in my head but outside in a vast world with people and things I could respond to, forgetting that I put them out there.

I also did not recognize the immediacy of cause and effect, -the experience seemed to be spread out in time and I saw myself as a victim of a world that I wasn't able to control. Man, how fucked up can you get? Of course I would feel separate and victimized...duh?

There I saw for the first time how little I am, how small my world and that I am in fact going nowhere- no purpose, no nothing.

I HAVE TO GET OUT! I cried out---Yes! And I had been given the means with A Course In Miracles to do this to: WAKE UP. Oh, guaranteed: there is nothing more fun as the adventure of taking full responsibility for EVERYTHING that occurs.-Yeah, baby.

Following sections are out of the Course. AWESOME!

"Projection makes perception, and you cannot see beyond it. Again and again have you attacked your brother, because you saw in him a shadow figure in your private world. And thus it is you must attack yourself first, for what you attack is not in others. Its only reality is in your own mind, and by attacking others you are literally attacking what is not there."

"Projection makes perception. The world you see is what you gave it, nothing more than that. But though it is no more than that, it is not less. Therefore, to you it is important. It is the witness to your state of mind, the outside picture of an inward condition. As a man thinketh, so does he perceive. Therefore, seek not to change the world, but choose to change your mind about the world. Perception is a result and not a cause. And that is why order of difficulty in miracles is meaningless. Everything looked upon with vision is healed and holy. Nothing perceived without it means anything. And where there is no meaning, there is chaos."

Love ya-mean it.

Who am I again?

2007-09-14T15:40:00.000-07:00

Well. today I was sitting in class...thinking.

By the way: I am so happy and fortunate spend every morning at Endeavor Academy with the most incredible teacher ever: The Master Teacher. He is just so fun and pulls the rug right from underneath me. THANK GOD-I AM SO GRATEFUL. I don't want to get caught up in the past anymore.
I get up in the morning and here I am: hey, I have to get up, I got to take a shower, get dressed, make some tea and so on...I really take everything for granted-the bed, my hand, my reflection in the mirror and it feels sooo good to be eliminated. In a good sense. Why would I hold on to any belief about myself?-Its going to be proven wrong any minute anyway.
So, well. today I was sitting in class...thinking: I don't think I can be of any worth for anyone. First of all I am boring and second, who would want to use me for really important stuff I am just this complete moron fucking everything up that comes my way...and so on. Anyone familiar with this?
So, I don't know what to do, but I know this now is really getting nowhere. So, I turn to Jesus in my mind and look at him and let him judge me. He just gives me this really BIG grin and doesn't say a thing. I laugh out loud and remember that I just was caught up in time trying to make my own little world of misery and pain real. I am dead than really, or some of you would say not dead yet, but getting there fast. OOOh, well.
Thank God, I know what my job is: STOP figuring anything out. Just let it be changed for me and rest in God.
I love each and everyone of you!

Let IT change baby!

2007-09-12T16:16:00.000-07:00

It's so great: I feel a change is taking shape and I am here watching it change-I'm loving it. It will all unfold perfectly. I want to share all what I love in life with you. It is my joy to share.
I love God, I love Jesus, I love the Course in Miracles,
I love creative action with God, I love painting, I love poems,
I love to create my clothes, I love to heal my mind, I love colors, I love good design,
I love fashion, I love the truth, I love you, I love to get out of time.
Until now I still was afraid to just be happy and share everything, because I had a judgment about what is more with God and what isn't. I knew reasonable that that could not be true--but I was afraid to be judged. Isn't that funny...Judgment is only happening in me -it is not out there. What a relief! So, since God is always with me, God is in EVERYTHING I see or do, in EVERY action out of LOVE. It does not not need any justification, it just is.
God created you unique. You were picked for a very specific job that ONLY you can do. There is no way you could continue to compare yourself. What makes you happy? Go do it!
What I find is that I do not look for happiness in this world at all. Everything seems to be given me by God--I just stopped to question His ways just stop to sort it out, because I can't. I cannot judge simply, because I have NO GROUNDS on which to judge anything. What a relief!
EVERYTHING is a Miracle! EVERYTHING! Your judgment or belief about it is completely meaningless. Give away your meaning and love what is.

Let all things be exactly as they are.

Let me not be Your critic, Lord, today, and judge against You. Let me not attempt to interfere with Your creation, and distort it into sickly forms. Let me be willing to withdraw my wishes from its unity, and thus to let it be as You created it. For thus will I be able, too, to recognize my Self as You created me. In Love was I created, and in Love will I remain forever. What can frighten me, when I let all things be exactly as they are? Lesson 268

PS: The picture I made in Photoshop as my desktop background. Mail me if you like to have it and I send you a bigger size...

9/11

2007-09-11T14:27:00.000-07:00

9/11 appears in a lot of minds as a terrible, tragic day.

It is quite amazing how we cling to the past and believes connected to them and also the decision to give them a certain meaning.
I remember that I couldn't believe what i saw on TV that day and I thought I was very shocked and confused. I was in Berlin at the time on a shopping street and overheard guys talking about it. One of them said: "This means war" --I did not know what he was talking about, till I got to my friends place where it was the first thing that was shown on TV.
I also remember looking within and saying: "Above all else I want to see" and "Above all else I want to see THINGS differently". What occurred was this: I saw a big column of Light arising from just that very same spot where the towers stood. There was something profound happening that I could not know what the meaning was, but I knew: all is right.
Later I decided to join with our Healing Center Station in NY and went to see the place myself and offer my help. Everyone I met on the streets seemed very open and loving and when I got to the site where the planes crashed, I felt more then I saw: this immense energy that would arise straight into the heavens. The reassurance came into my mind quickly: --There is more going on then I think and understand right now AND it is good. There is only love.

Watch these videos with Byron Katie about how to turn around the fear of attackpart1 and part2

PS: 9/11 happens to be my friends birthday and the phone# we call in an emergency.
What picture do put with a post like that? I can't think of one...

Shelley's Story: Miracles DO happen!

2007-07-11T15:46:00.000-07:00

I have a story to tell you that I know will be hard to believe in parts, but it has happened to me, and I cannot erase or deny any of it (though at times I wish I could). I am a "normal" woman who grew up in simple yet chaotic times. I am much like you in most every way. I always thought I would be the last one to have a miracle occur in her life, much less two miracles, and all that has happened since. Therefore the tale I tell could be of your life, and not mine. But seeing it is mine I guess I was meant to tell it.

What I want to establish first, is the fact that miracles do happen and they happen to people like you and me. What we need to make these miracles happen is to open ourselves to the communication that is all around us every day. Communication not from this world but from the world of our creator, the cosmos and the universe. The message comes from a distance, but you find it by going inside and believing. We can all create miracles within our lives, and that is one of the main points in writing this for you. I have no special tricks. Simply open yourself to the possibility that what I tell you is possible and that it is available to every person.

I will refer to God in many ways throughout this story. This is strange for me to refer to God in any sense, as I believed he had abandoned me a very long time ago. But I will refer to a prime creator of the cosmos and the universe, along with this earth that we live on every day. I call God the Prime Creator, because I want all those to understand that this story is completely unbiased and unprejudiced to any affiliation with any religion, and the God of my understanding is not only an earthly God, but a universal God. I will also refer to God as mother earth, Gaia, which I came to learn through this journey is the female piece of God. As in everything that is in our universe, you must balance darkness with light, peace with war, and recognize the two faces of God, the female and the male. We are all pieces of this Prime Creator. We are a part of God.

Two miracles happened in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada. My son and I drowned in a flooded marsh and not only lived to tell the tale, but we are better than ever. I was "dead" for fifteen minutes. I was told by beings of light how to save myself, and my small son. And I was given a message on how to heal the Earth.

Read the whole story here: http://www.firethegrid.org/eng/home-fr-eng.htm

Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness

2007-06-11T13:16:00.000-07:00

“Those who would let the captivity of loneliness in fear and death be lifted from their minds will feel the joy of their escape out into the universe. We will carry our message of hope, freedom and release from suffering to everyone that we meet."

I would love to invite everyone who wants to be free with me in

"Miracles in the Light of Freedom."

There will be a real fun retreat at the Miracles Healing Center July4th - 8th, 2007.

Come as you are!

It is impossible to see two worlds.

2007-05-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

Heaven is a choice I can make--right now.
Today I was reminded of how immediate salvation is…It is available to me right in this moment. -No matter what I believe is going on. The comfort I can take in the certainty that I can’t do it, but God will, if I just let Him. I am willing that He will remove my thought (however holy or crazy it is) and let it be replaced by God.
It is impossible to see two worlds because I can only have one thought at a time and the one I am having right now, that is what I am. That’s the world I choose to see now. There is no escape from this. Wow!
Yesterdays lesson “The world I see holds nothing that I want.”, had such a cool paragraph in it I want to share with you:
“Your whole perspective on the world will shift by just a little, every time you let your mind escape its chains. The world is not where it belongs. And you belong where it would be, and where it goes to rest when you release it from the world. Your Guide is sure. Open your mind to Him. Be still and rest.”
As above so below…
I love you guys, Lily.

Edinburgh, Scotland Miracle Festival

2007-04-18T13:59:00.000-07:00

A Course in Miracles International invites you to A Miracle Festival at Edinburgh , Scotland on 27, 28, 29 April 2007 “Forgiveness Is The Key to Happiness.”

In this gathering we will demonstrate through miraculous occurrence the total possibility of the healing and regeneration of our bodies through the admission and recognition of our perfection in the Mind of God.
Our host for this celebration will be Master Teacher along with Teachers of God from around the world, who have individually experienced the power of the miracle and the peace and joy of an enlightened mind. We have discovered through the unworldly masterpiece that is “A Course In Miracles” a mind training that is leading to the very real physical, mental and emotional transformation of ourselves and the recognition that each of us is a whole part of the eternally creating source of all reality.

Now is the time, this is the place, all are invited Come just as you are.

Quantum Healing-You are not a Body.

2006-09-22T11:34:00.000-07:00

Do you want to be able to feel well all the time, no matter what the circumstances are?

Matter including the body is winking in and out of existence a thousand times per second on the quantum level. We are confronted with the fact that what we perceive is a deliberate choice out of a field of infinite possibility. Why do we choose over and over pain instead of joy?
—Because we are addicted to our past memories about how we look at ourselves and the world and make up the same old body every time. Jesus in his A Course in Miracles would say: Pain is a poor perspective.

Teachers of God and Quantum Healers are delighted to help you regain the means by which this ridiculous circle of life and death can be broken. The choice is yours to change your perspective on the world. You are not a body but ruler of the universe. Is this a little bold? We think not.

I invite you to check it out yourself at the World Wellness Weekend with The Master Teacher of A Course In Miracles and Deepak Chopra in San Jose, California, Nov. 3-5, 2006. A life changing experience is waiting for you!

For information please visit: www.worldwellness.org

What About Getting Out of That Rocking Chair?

2006-02-20T12:30:00.000-08:00

What are you wishing for right now?Take a moment and look into your mind.

What is it you want?

Wishing indicates desire. Desire is a good, powerful tool and will get you to your goal eventually. How great is determination combined with it! I am determined to see.

Conflicting wishes, however, can never succeed. They will make up the chaos that you call this world and will go against God’s will and the truth. So your wish has to be undivided, completely passionate and focused on a “true goal.” What is a true goal then? Let’s face it right from the start: the only goal that can be achieved in space/time is one in accordance with God - period.

Do you still wish for what you had in mind at the beginning of this article?

Say for example, you wish to make someone happy and to be happy. (That would be a true goal.) You may say it, but do you mean it?

Being a Teacher of God simply means that you really really want to be happy and start to get into action. And that might feel a little uncomfortable at first and will take your determination. But hey, I don’t want to die in a rocking chair, do you? If you do not want to die, get up now!

I enjoyed reading something that Kathrin Kuhlman wrote in “A Glimpse into Glory” that I’d like to share with you:

“...You came to Aunt Litty’s house at 3 o’clock in the afternoon, she was still rocking. She’d just sit there by the hour, wishing. Wishing the work would get done. Wishing the washing was over with. Wishing that she didn’t have to get grandpa’s meal. Wishing she had what the neighbors had. Rocking and wishing.

I guess that’s the reason that to this day, I don’t like rocking chairs. I’ve seen so many of God’s precious children afflicted with this spirit of laziness. They wish God would do something for them. They wish God would heal their bodies. They wish God would meet their needs. They wish they could have, spiritually, what other people talk about. But they never receive because they are slothful.

You don’t get things from God that way. You’ve got to get yourself out of that rocking chair. You’ve got to put feet to your wishes. You’ve got to have gumption. You’ve got to do something about your dreams, or they’ll never come true.

That’s what Jesus meant when He said, “Ask and Ye shall receive.” Some have never asked. "Knock and it shall be opened unto you.” There are those who have never even knocked. “Seek and ye shall find.” Some have never sought.

If you only knew the potentialities in your own life - the potential you have in Christ Jesus. If you only knew. If you this very moment, sitting there in defeat, despair, and despondency, could only see the great power plant to achieve that is sitting idle in your soul, waiting for you to throw the switch. If you only knew what you could be in Christ Jesus, but laziness robs you of success...”

“...There are no limitations to what faith and gumption can accomplish. Absolutely none. As long as your faith in God is intact, all the reservoirs of power are at your disposal.

But hear me. God won’t do a thing to help you to bring it to pass until you get up and out of that chair and start doing something about it. Faith without works, faith without gumption, is dead. But with God’s power and your gumption, the opportunities are unlimited...”

What Kuhlman calls "laziness” I would rather call, with Jesus, an “untrained mind.” An untrained mind can accomplish nothing. That’s why we have the Workbook of A Course In Miracles - to unlearn or undo what has no reality.

Not a thing will happen to you if you are not willing to for-give, meaning giving first...giving your faith, willingness to be wrong, excitement, desire for adventure, courage to go beyond limitations. But only your active participation in wanting to know by your own experience what real life is about will set you free and make you and everyone around you happy. That is the promise for the Teacher of God. And it works! Let’s decide for heaven now! Let’s get alive.

I love you, Lily

Above All Else I Want To SeeThings Differently.

2006-01-28T11:23:00.000-08:00

Hi...here I am again dropping in...

I would like to introduce you to a fun new Blog from Martina. She will share her experiences with you in practicing the Workbook of A Course in Miracles.
I also invite you to visit the January Newsletter from our Miracles Healing Center.

The Alpha and Omega Resolution

2006-01-11T13:20:00.000-08:00

Back at last...
Lately I have been reading Miracle Stories of healings in connection with Katherine Kuhlman. It is fascinating to me that you are able to make a decision to be healed right now. The Holy Spirit is always present. It is your Teacher and Friend. A mediator between your identity with God, your true Self, the universe—however else you would like to call it.
Your body is an idea, how Jesus puts it in His Course In Miracles,- it is never experienced as NOW, but only remembered or anticipated. The moment we let time collapse in on us, we become the Alpha and Omega Point simultaneously. The experience of Truth is never in time, but given by grace through direct communication with God (which is very possible). In that renewal we are completely new. Newborn in every instant. We just let the change happen!

Now will I seek and find the peace of God.

In peace I was created. And in peace do I remain. It is not given me to change my Self. How merciful is God my Father, that when He created me He gave me peace forever. Now I ask but to be what I am. And can this be denied me, when it is forever true?

Father, I seek the peace You gave as mine in my creation. What was given then must be here now, for my creation was apart from time, and still remains beyond all change. The peace in which Your Son was born into Your Mind is shining there unchanged. I am as You created me. I need but call on You to find the peace You gave. It is Your Will that gave it to Your Son. Amen.

Merry Christmas to you all!

2005-12-23T14:03:00.000-08:00

I just want to express how grateful I am that you are joined with me in the birth of Christ this Christmas. Thank you! There is so much light these days …my heart is going out to you. Everyone is in the giving mode and in that state you are perfect, because you are extending as the truth of you. It does not really matter what you give in the form –it is purely an action of your mind...
Merry Christmas.

Please join with me in Prayer:

The Holy Christ Is Born In Me Today.

Watch with me, angels, watch with me today. Let all God's holy Thoughts surround me, and be still with me while Heaven's Son is born. Let earthly sounds be quiet, and the sights to which I am accustomed disappear. Let Christ be welcomed where He is at home. And let Him hear the sounds He understands, and see but sights that show His Father's Love. Let Him no longer be a stranger here, for He is born again in me today.
Your Son is welcome, Father. He has come to save me from the evil self I made. He is the Self That You have given me. He is but what I really am in truth. He is the Son You love above all things. He is my Self as You created me. It is not Christ That can be crucified. Safe in Your Arms let me receive Your Son.

There is a beautiful Christmas Story waiting for you in our Miracles Healing Center Newsletter. Enjoy!

Advent Calendar

2005-12-03T12:42:00.000-08:00

Come and visit this link every day in December to get a christmas message.

The prayer for today is:
My sinlessness protects me from all harm.

My sinlessness ensures me perfect peace, eternal safety, everlasting love, freedom forever from all thought of loss; complete deliverance from suffering. And only happiness can be my state, for only happiness is given me. What must I do to know all this is mine? I must accept Atonement for myself, and nothing more. God has already done all things that need be done. And I must learn I need do nothing of myself, for I need but accept my Self, my sinlessness, created for me, now already mine, to feel God's Love protecting me from harm, to understand my Father loves His Son; to know I am the Son my Father loves.

You Who created me in sinlessness are not mistaken about what I am. I was mistaken when I thought I sinned, but I accept Atonement for myself. Father, my dream is ended now. Amen.

The Miracle is always all around!

2005-11-25T12:00:00.000-08:00

We all love to listen to miracle stories. They are reminders that we are not alone, having "friends from the other side" watching over us. The question is not that really, its: what do we do with it in our lives? What is the action of your thoughts? --This is what I love about the mindtraining of A Course in Miracles. It teaches you systematicaly how to train your mind to a whole new perception of everyone and everything in the world. It lets you know that God has no idea about any misery you are in, because He knows you only perfect, as He created you. Now comes the part that really pisses everyone off: the only way to be saved is taking full responsibility for what is happening to us and to learn how to think with God and keep an open mind and heart to receive all the gifts that God gave us the moment He created us.

Here is a miracle story to read for you. I promised to put this link on my blog, so everyone would be able to join in the miracle with the Whitlock family. This is not ment to be an advertisement, even though you are welcome to buy the book online to help children in need. Excerpt from "10-4, Good Buddy: A Miracle Story Chapter 1"

Giving Thanks

2005-11-16T16:47:00.000-08:00

Please take a moment and look at our newborn newsletter on gratitude. Lots of authentik stories are waiting for you.---And I myself am grateful for you to even consider in this very moment that this message could have an efect on your personal life...Greetings and love from Lily.

All fear is past and only love is here.

All fear is past, because its source is gone, and all its thoughts gone with it. Love remains the only present state, whose Source is here forever and forever. Can the world seem bright and clear and safe and welcoming, with all my past mistakes oppressing it, and showing me distorted forms of fear? Yet in the present love is obvious, and its effects apparent. All the world shines in reflection of its holy light, and I perceive a world forgiven at last.

Father, let not Your holy world escape my sight today. Nor let my ears be deaf to all the hymns of gratitude the world is singing underneath the sounds of fear. There is a real world which the present holds safe from all past mistakes. And I would see only this world before my eyes today.

Now let a new perception come to me.

2005-11-10T10:57:00.000-08:00

The only moment I can be saved is indeed NOW! I am willing to release the past along with the future and ask for something new. Isn't it funny that in times when eveything falls apart, we start to feel alive?

The truth is quite simple:

If I do not let everything fall apart in each moment I am actually dead.

There is no sence in holding anything together but to start depending solely on God. This moment, NOW, is where the miracle happens and the impossible can occur...

It's falling back together through God Who knows my needs better than I do.
I love you all, Lily.

Now let a new perception come to me.

Father, there is a vision which beholds all things as sinless, so that fear has gone, and where it was is love invited in. And love will come wherever it is asked. This vision is Your gift. The eyes of Christ look on a world forgiven. In His sight are all its sins forgiven, for He sees no sin in anything He looks upon. Now let His true perception come to me, that I may waken from the dream of sin and look within upon my sinlessness, which You have kept completely undefiled upon the altar to Your holy Son, the Self with Which I would identify.

Let us today behold each other in the sight of Christ. How beautiful we are! How holy and how loving! Brother, come and join with me today. We save the world when we have joined. For in our vision it becomes as holy as the light in us.

I seek a future different from the past.

From new perception of the world there comes a future very different from the past. The future now is recognized as but extension of the present. Past mistakes can cast no shadows on it, so that fear has lost its idols and its images, and being formless, it has no effects. Death will not claim the future now, for life is now its goal, and all the needed means are happily provided. Who can grieve or suffer when the present has been freed, extending its security and peace into a quiet future filled with joy?

Father, we were mistaken in the past, and choose to use the present to be free. Now do we leave the future in Your Hands, leaving behind our past mistakes, and sure that You will keep Your present promises, and guide the future in their holy light.

Lisa's Diary

2005-10-28T12:16:00.000-07:00

Here is a great blog with daily updates on a story being told about waking to your true Self. We are all sharing in this single experience of awakening and it is good and helpful to connect and share the seeming process of returning to heaven or rehearsal in forgiveness. The mindtraining of A Course in Miracles is working. Lisa is a wittness! Read and enjoy!

Here is today's prayer for you--it's one of my favorites:

And God Himself shall wipe away all tears.

Father, unless I judge I cannot weep. Nor can I suffer pain, or feel I am abandoned or unneeded in the world. This is my home because I judge it not, and therefore is it only what You will. Let me today behold it uncondemned, through happy eyes forgiveness has released from all distortion. Let me see Your world instead of mine. And all the tears I shed will be forgotten, for their source is gone. Father, I will not judge Your world today.

God's world is happy. Those who look on it can only add their joy to it, and bless it as a cause of further joy in them. We wept because we did not understand. But we have learned the world we saw was false, and we will look upon God's world today.

Which Way Is Heaven?

2005-10-22T12:06:00.000-07:00

Waking from Disaster. Thats what is happening to me/you. Jesus is asking you specfically to join Him in the resurrection. This certainly needs some practice. The mind training of A Course In Miracles is an incredible tool that is helping me out of disaster every single day. The first step is taking responsibility for everything I look upon (...oh, shit!...). Through my forgiveness I can see this differently. I leave an open space for God to enter and listen to the truth. This is my prayer...

I incourage you to read the October issue of the newsletter from The Miracles Healing Center. Especially the article by Judy Dunn.

This is todays prayer:

The Holy Spirit looks through me today.

Christ asks that He may use my eyes today, and thus redeem the world. He asks this gift that He may offer peace of mind to me, and take away all terror and all pain. And as they are removed from me, the dreams that seemed to settle on the world are gone. Redemption must be one. As I am saved, the world is saved with me. For all of us must be redeemed together. Fear appears in many different forms, but love is one.

My Father, Christ has asked a gift of me, and one I give that it be given me. Help me to use the eyes of Christ today, and thus allow the Holy Spirit's Love to bless all things which I may look upon, that His forgiving Love may rest on me.

Your prayer for today....

2005-10-05T11:11:00.000-07:00

Praying is your communication link with your source, the universe, the Self you are in Reality or with God however you like to look at it.
Human Beings are praying all the time, but they usually are not aware what they are asking for and most of the times they do not really know what will make them happy.

It is always a matter of: what do you really want?????
Freedom of mind or a new car?
Love or a new television set?
Being happy or getting a new lover?

We will remember today that we are getting the results of what we are asking for and we admit today that we do not have a clue what will make us happy.
Why not try this prayer from Jesus' A Course In Miracles?

God is my Father, and He loves His Son.

My true Identity is so secure, so lofty, sinless, glorious and great, wholly beneficent and free from guilt, that Heaven looks to It to give it light. It lights the world as well. It is the gift my Father gave to me; the one as well I give the world. There is no gift but This that can be either given or received. This is reality, and only This. This is illusion's end. It is the truth.

My Name, O Father, still is known to You. I have forgotten it, and do not know where I am going, who I am, or what it is I do. Remind me, Father, now, for I am weary of the world I see. Reveal what You would have me see instead.

The Nessecity for Mindtraining

2005-09-30T13:34:00.000-07:00

Light is an essential part of the awakening to your Christ-mind. Everyone who has picked up “A Course in Miracles” has had a light experience. The human mind tends to disassociate or repress awareness of these experiences. Yet whether they are memorable or just below the surface of consciousness, they are in the mind. I think everyone will agree with that. The question is how to raise this joyous experience to awareness, expand it, and make it part of his daily experience? How does one awaken to the love that they are?

“A Course in Miracles” offers us the means of mind training. As every reader of the Course knows, the Workbook has two parts. The first 220 lessons perform an undoing of the mind. The unique aspect of this undoing is its use of time. The goal is transformative moments rather than extended periods of practice such as meditation. The means may be a meditative period of time during your day, but know it as that: a means not the end. Meditation, like all techniques is completely unreal and finally meaningless. This unworldly training is the quickest method I know to awaken to the unreality of time, by bringing the mind into the only moment of time that reflects eternity: now. All of time is just a moment. To say that is one thing, to know it and use it requires mind training. For an experiential introduction to the power of this approach go to Miraclesnetwork.org and listen to the audios and videos offered there.

Undoing is not enough. The last 140 lessons promote the acquisition of true perception. Once the mind has achieved a certain degree of freedom from the petty goals of this world, the Thought of God will be written in their place. This is a pure joy to focus your day on communion with God. This is a foundation of your preparation to extend miracles and heal through the power of the One Mind, your true identity. Why not start this training today? The world, and more importantly you, cannot be healed if you remain in the terminal, sickly condition that we all know as human. Begin your transformation and awakening to God today by doing the lesson below:

LESSON 91
Miracles are seen in light.

It is important to remember that miracles and vision necessarily go together. This needs repeating, and frequent repeating. It is a central idea in your new thought system, and the perception that it produces. The miracle is always there. Its presence is not caused by your vision; its absence is not the result of your failure to see. It is only your awareness of miracles that is affected. You will see them in the light; you will not see them in the dark.
To you, then, light is crucial. While you remain in darkness, the miracle remains unseen. Thus you are convinced it is not there. This follows from the premises from which the darkness comes. Denial of light leads to failure to perceive it. Failure to perceive light is to perceive darkness. The light is useless to you then, even though it is there. You cannot use it because its presence is unknown to you. And the seeming reality of the darkness makes the idea of light meaningless.
To be told that what you do not see is there sounds like insanity. It is very difficult to become convinced that it is insanity not to see what is there, and to see what is not there instead. You do not doubt that the body's eyes can see. You do not doubt the images they show you are reality. Your faith lies in the darkness, not the light. How can this be reversed? For you it is impossible, but you are not alone in this.
Your efforts, however little they may be, have strong support. Did you but realize how great this strength, your doubts would vanish. Today we will devote ourselves to the attempt to let you feel this strength. When you have felt the strength in you, which makes all miracles within your easy reach, you will not doubt. The miracles your sense of weakness hides will leap into awareness as you feel the strength in you.
Three times today, set aside about ten minutes for a quiet time in which you try to leave your weakness behind. This is accomplished very simply, as you instruct yourself that you are not a body. Faith goes to what you want, and you instruct your mind accordingly. Your will remains your teacher, and your will has all the strength to do what it desires. You can escape the body if you choose. You can experience the strength in you.
Begin the longer practice periods with this statement of true cause and effect relationships:

Miracles are seen in light.
The body's eyes do not perceive the light.
But I am not a body. What am I?

The question with which this statement ends is needed for our exercises today. What you think you are is a belief to be undone. But what you really are must be revealed to you. The belief you are a body calls for correction, being a mistake. The truth of what you are calls on the strength in you to bring to your awareness what the mistake conceals.
If you are not a body, what are you? You need to be aware of what the Holy Spirit uses to replace the image of a body in your mind. You need to feel something to put your faith in, as you lift it from the body. You need a real experience of something else, something more solid and more sure; more worthy of your faith, and really there.
If you are not a body, what are you? Ask this in honesty, and then devote several minutes to allowing your mistaken thoughts about your attributes to be corrected, and their opposites to take their place. Say, for example:

I am not weak, but strong.
I am not helpless, but all powerful.
I am not limited, but unlimited.
I am not doubtful, but certain.
I am not an illusion, but a reality.
I cannot see in darkness, but in light.

In the second phase of the exercise period, try to experience these truths about yourself. Concentrate particularly on the experience of strength. Remember that all sense of weakness is associated with the belief you are a body, a belief that is mistaken and deserves no faith. Try to remove your faith from it, if only for a moment. You will be accustomed to keeping faith with the more worthy in you as we go along.
Relax for the rest of the practice period, confident that your efforts, however meager, are fully supported by the strength of God and all His Thoughts. It is from Them that your strength will come. It is through Their strong support that you will feel the strength in you. They are united with you in this practice period, in which you share a purpose like Their own. Theirs is the light in which you will see miracles, because Their strength is yours. Their strength becomes your eyes, that you may see.
Five or six times an hour, at reasonably regular intervals, remind yourself that miracles are seen in light. Also, be sure to meet temptation with today's idea. This form would be helpful for this special purpose:

Miracles are seen in light. Let me not
close my eyes because of this.

Intro written by Alden Hughes, Minister @ The Miracles Healing Center

Principles of Miracles

2005-09-14T11:52:00.000-07:00

*There is no order of difficulty in miracles. One is not "harder" or "bigger" than another. They are all the same. All expressions of love are maximal.

*Miracles occur naturally as expressions of love. The real miracle is the love that inspires them. In this sense everything that comes from love is a miracle.

*All miracles mean life, and God is the Giver of life. His Voice will direct you very specifically. You will be told all you need to know.
*Miracles are natural. When they do not occur something has gone wrong.

*Miracles transcend the body. They are sudden shifts into invisibility, away from the bodily level. That is why they heal.

*A miracle is a service. It is the maximal service you can render to another. It is a way of loving your neighbor as yourself. You recognize your own and your neighbor's worth simultaneously.

The Son of God is my Identity

2005-09-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

My Self is holy beyond all the thoughts of holiness of which I now conceive. Its shimmering and perfect purity is far more brilliant than is any light that I have ever looked upon. Its love is limitless, with an intensity that holds all things within it, in the calm of quiet certainty. Its strength comes not from burning impulses which move the world, but from the boundless Love of God Himself. How far beyond this world my Self must be, and yet how near to me and close to God!

Father, You know my true Identity. Reveal It now to me who am Your Son, that I may waken to the truth in You, and know that Heaven is restored to me.

Request for a miracle prayer

2005-09-07T11:55:00.000-07:00

Please submit your prayer for a healing. In God all things are possible. He Himself will wipe away all tears. His will for you is happiness without opposite, because he loves you. You are still as He created you shining in the reflection of His love.
Your prayer request will be added to our daily prayer circle at The Miracles Healing Center

International Day of Peace

2005-09-02T12:39:00.000-07:00

Enjoy this beautiful slide show. Click here.

There is no peace except the Peace of God

2005-08-08T13:34:00.000-07:00

There is no peace except the peace of God, because He has one Son who cannot make a world in opposition to God's Will and to his own, which is the same as His. What could he hope to find in such a world? It cannot have reality, because it never was created. Is it here that he would seek for peace? Or must he see that, as he looks on it, the world can but deceive? Yet can he learn to look on it another way, and find the peace of God.
Peace is the bridge that everyone will cross, to leave this world behind. But peace begins within the world perceived as different, and leading from this fresh perception to the gate of Heaven and the way beyond. Peace is the answer to conflicting goals, to senseless journeys, frantic, vain pursuits, and meaningless endeavors. Now the way is easy, sloping gently toward the bridge where freedom lies within the peace of God.
Let us not lose our way again today. We go to Heaven, and the path is straight. Only if we attempt to wander can there be delay, and needless wasted time on thorny byways. God alone is sure, and He will guide our footsteps. He will not desert His Son in need, nor let him stray forever from his home. The Father calls; the Son will hear. And that is all there is to what appears to be a world apart from God, where bodies have reality.
Now is there silence. Seek no further. You have come to where the road is carpeted with leaves of false desires, fallen from the trees of hopelessness you sought before. Now are they underfoot. And you look up and on toward Heaven, with the body's eyes but serving for an instant longer now. Peace is already recognized at last, and you can feel its soft embrace surround your heart and mind with comfort and with love.
Today we seek no idols. Peace can not be found in them. The peace of God is ours, and only this will we accept and want. Peace be to us today. For we have found a simple, happy way to leave the world of ambiguity, and to replace our shifting goals and solitary dreams with single purpose and companionship. For peace is union, if it be of God. We seek no further. We are close to home, and draw still nearer every time we say:

There is no peace except the peace of God,
And I am glad and thankful it is so.

Now would I be as God created me.

2005-08-04T13:42:00.000-07:00

"My only relationship is with my creator. If I communicate with Him, communication with everything around is possible." Love, Lily.

Today I will accept the truth about myself. I will arise in glory, and allow the light in me to shine upon the world throughout the day. I bring the world the tidings of salvation which I hear as God my Father speaks to me. And I behold the world that Christ would have me see, aware it ends the bitter dream of death; aware it is my Father's call to me.

!Christ is my eyes today, and He the ears that listen to the Voice for God today. Father, I come to You through Him Who is Your Son, and my true Self as well. Amen.

About Prayer

2005-07-22T11:17:00.000-07:00

What you ask for you receive. But this refers to the prayer of the heart, not to the words you use in praying. Sometimes the words and the prayer are contradictory; sometimes they agree. It does not matter. God does not understand words, for they were made by separated minds to keep them in the illusion of separation. Words can be helpful, particularly for the beginner, in helping concentration and facilitating the exclusion, or at least the control, of extraneous thoughts. Let us not forget, however, that words are but symbols of symbols. They are thus twice removed from reality.

Today belongs to Love. Let me not fear

2005-07-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

Father, today I would let all things be as You created them, and give Your Son the honor due his sinlessness; the love of brother to his brother and his Friend. Through this I am redeemed. Through this as well the truth will enter where illusions were, light will replace all darkness, and Your Son will know he is as You created him.

A special blessing comes to us today, from Him Who is our Father. Give this day to Him, and there will be no fear today, because the day is given unto Love.